| I am in such deep gratitude for having attended this sacred weekend with Doug and my fellow Oneness family. This Silent Eye Meditation created a much bigger impact on my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies than I ever would have imagined, and my love affair with AmmaBhagavan has deepened in such a profound way. The feeling that I am 'here' but 'not here' began the next day and is growing stronger. I am now processing the shifts of energy and grace that are very subtle, yet powerful and extremely sacred. My morning meditations and bond with AmmaBhagavan are so much stronger because of the deeper connection I now have with them, and my heart continues to expand with tears of joy coming freely. As I watched Doug give the Eye Deeksha, I was overcome with such deep and profound joy, love and gratitude for him with the love and divine bliss that enveloped this beautiful man. Afterwards it became apparent with Doug's gaze, that I was looking into the eyes of the Divine. What a sacred gift for our beloved Doug, and soon for all of us. Thank you beloved AmmaBhagavan for your unconditional love. |
| I had deep healings during the meditations and jappa yoga sessions...each session was a breakthrough for me....I definately deepend my connection with the divine... |
| The Ananda Mandala was very powerful. Lots of expansion of awareness and a very blissful state that lasted for several hours. |
| I continue to be amazed at Sri AB's wisdom in choosing Dougji for this mission. Doug has always been so approachable, funny, humble, honest, gentle, and perfect for all the various roles he has filled in Oneness! He's a true ambassador to the West for Oneness and the Eye Deeksha. When I stared into his eyes, even only on the screen, my mouth dropped open, I held up my hands, and said "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!" I was so filled by love for and from Dougji, and tears rolled down my face. I overheard 2 women in the elevator saying "This was the best weekend of my life!" I definitely agree! |
| It was good to gather with the other trainers again, a good support system and time to renew old friendships and make new ones. I also found the Oneness Meditation very powerful. Just being in the room started the process. I'm not sure if it was even necessary to look at Doug as the energy was all-encompasing. |
| It instilled a deep stillness and peace which is still present. I am seeing the personalities raise and depart, all are about and around what i want and need from others, living horizontally not verttically. |
| Greetings! I had several of the above during and after the Kickoff. Instead of a narrative i'll list them out: 1: I wrote Doug a letter that had questions in it. I found most of the questions answered during the course of the weekend with one answered upon my return home and the others really don't matter because who's asking them anyhow? 2: I realize the reason i'm probably not seeing a lot of manifesting going on around me is because it's probably happening before i even ask. (like when my new fairy mobile [car] showed up in my life when i wasn't planning on one.) I do feel, however, an increased awareness, intuitiveness, understandig of how communications from God work. I pray and He does answer; i'm seeing/feeling it. (see #9 below for most recent example). 3: Regarding the 3-part process of Passion/Instrument/Destiny; after reflecting, God has been there for me so many times and under so many diverse conditions, that the commitment i wrote down was: "I want to Be Here in the Present moment always for You as You have always been for me, whatever that moment holds; please bless me with keeping this commitment." 4: During moments when i start to beat myself up for saying something, i remember God does not make mistakes! Besides, He's the one doing all the talking anyway. 5: I saw with increased conviction how people's personalities are not who they really are, which makes it easier to accept and be around those personalities i might clash with, as well as accepting my own more readily which can be a little shit at times. 6: During the Eye Deeksha, the Kundalini rose and healed hidden scars from a past physical trauma. By the time i finished the fourth Meditation and Deeksha, i felt like i had smoked several joints; i was fully stoned and could not move. Great Good Fun! 7: Doug talked to me when i wasn't expecting it. 8: By the time i reached Los Angeles that evening and still hours from home, i became really sick. It felt like i was burning up and i wanted to vomit in the airport rubbish can. It was horrible. My head was plugged up, my ears hurt, i could hardly breathe through my nose. I prayed for help getting through this process and making it home. I did not want to stay alone and sick in L.A. 9: During the final flight home, while waiting for God's help, it was announced the Medford Airport was socked in with fog and we would be landing in Portland. I prayed again for help to lift the fog to 1/2 mile so the plane could land; i didn't want to be sick in Portland either. Midway through the flight i started feeling better. By the time we reached the Oregon border, the fog had lifted and we landed, and did i give Gratitude and Thanks! By then it was well after 11 p.m. while i waited for my luggage, Steppenwolf came on over the airport speakers. I heard myself singing the song softly in my head and had the strongest urge to start dancing - in other words, i was really, really feeling better. 10: The next day - after my shower - i went to put lotion on. as i applied the lotion to my right leg what I thought at first was lint from the towel starts to roll up with the lotion, but the lint theory wasn't logical because I've never had such a problem before with these towels plus nothing different was done with them the last time they were washed them. The same thing happened with my right leg, arms - my whole body! My whole body was shedding some sort of black stuff which the lotion was picking up and removing. I finally wiped all the lotion with toxins off with the towel. I'm surmising this was the result of that intense fever i had in L.A.; toxins were being burned off and released. It was bizarre! And so cool at the same time! 11: Find myself pleasantly happy and wondering what God's next plans for me are.... Until then, i'll be practicing self-inquiry and (see) #3 above. |
| I was not physically present. There is a change in consciousness just being linked to people who where there. Silence, Joy.... Easily move into a state of expanded awareness and quiet. Far less mind chatter. When I speak with people who were there, I feel a shift in my consciousness and a "high". It is contagious. |
| It was awesome like last year's. It was great to connect with like minds and communicate with other trainers and OBG's. It is a great opportunity to get motivated and excited all over again, being with our Oneness family and Dougjii, not to mention the live skype with Sri Bhagavan. I came away with lots of ideas on how and what to do next, some goals for 2012 and it was great to put faces to names I had seen on the group. An awesome experience that happened to me: While doing the Ananda Mandala the 1st time, my ancestors began appearing before me bowing and giving thanks to me for the work I am doing. First, my parents came, then my siblings who crossed over, then grandparents, then many others I do not know (but knew they were ancestors); this crowd all came to bless me and bow before me for the clearing of 7 generations that I had done in my Oneness work (and other work perhaps). This was very moving and powerful! Since we had blessed our ancestors, etc. in many of the processes that we do in Oneness. |
| This was a terrific event. The consciousness is continuing to expand. I feel closer to Amma Bhagavan |
| It's so hard to describe much of what I experienced; it just doesn't match with words. It was so beautiful to share in this wonderful community, but the highlights for me were having Bhagavan visit with us by Skype (almost more joy than I could bear!), and the Oneness Meditation itself. After my first time through the meditation (I confess I went through three times!), it was just mandatory that I go to my room and lie down for a half hour to try to integrate the energy at least a little. But it was pretty overwhelming. I would say the best description is that I began to feel Amma Bhagavan living inside of me in a very real way. We prepared food together, talked about my life and how I might contribute, laughed, and Amma anointed my head with oil. Jesus also appeared and sat with AB and myself, which made me gasp, as I had felt so close to him earlier in life, but not as much lately. It was a wonderful experience. Thank you, thank you, thank you! |
| Words fall short. I went into the light and a vibration of Ecstasy Consumed my being. It was so strong and tangible. I no longer experienced myself as my body but rather as this Light. Laughter consumed my being too and my body felt to what best can be described as a heart rapture or a state of causeless bliss. I am eternally grateful and my prayer is that everyone gets the opportunity to experience the Oneness Blessing Meditation with Dougji at least once in their life!" - Biana Mavasheva, Chicago, Illinois After the event, I feel a deeper even more intimate connection to my Divine. Also there is a massive opening during my meditations at home. It's as if I expanded into a bigger opening. Quite remarkable! I am so grateful and it is very nice to experience SriAmmaBhagavan's light within me in such an expansive way even after the event. Ohh and I also saw a tremendous amount of light pouring out of Doug - especially out of his Crown Chakra. |
| It was the very best experience I have ever experienced. I made an ilntent that it would be a "magical" experience and it was. I am manifesting more, loving deeper, and experiencing bliss. Divine Grace took care of all my needs from the time I left home on. Thank you so much for all energy you put into this. |
| I very much enjoyed this event. it has helped me to have a deeper understanding of what deeksha is and what it does to enhance spiritual growth and unfoldment. as a spiritual teacher i clearly see the similarities between oneness blessing meditation teachings and new thought spiritual teachings. i feel better able to assist others in opening to the similarities of all modalities intended to assist us in growing spiritually. I am really happy to be a part of this inaugural event. |
| I was able to really begin to experience the Divine in everything. I physically felt the Divine alive in my heart and the feeling has stayed with me since. |
| What a beautifully organized and paced event! Excellent balance of yoga, teachings, Q&A, self-examination, sharing. All of these pieces were so well led, with humor and happiness and focus. The small group activity gently moved me toward looking more deeply at my own vision and role for the coming year. The music was phenomenal, underscoring and deepening each experience. I also liked how the Trainers and OBGs were integrated. All of it built to Sunday afternoon, to the incredible experience of seeing and feeling infinite love and bliss pour through Doug to us. As we all sat laughing together, sharing in the immense power and joy, I saw the actuality of sweeping change for the planet, saw a wave of bliss pass through people everywhere. It was Divine.. I'm looking forward to seeing how this will unfold inside me over the next days and weeks. And how it will unfold in the world over the next decades. |
| Ghislaine and I feel the grace that flowed through ourselves and the group was amazing. We can both still feel the power of it several days later. We had our regular blessing evening in our home Tuesday night. We both experienced it as being at a new level of spaciousness, love and joy. Laughter came bubbling up. We feel the grace very present at this moment, and Ghislaine has the consistent physical sensation of the deeksha in her head at the time since we . returned |
| I've been a Trainer since 2010, and can honestly say this was the most powerful, loving, experience to-date. It was obviously saturated with Deeksha from the very beginning, but it felt like the Deeksha was being activated beyond any intention any of us might have set. It felt like a cosmic, divine, global appointment that each of us kept, which enabled a shift beyond what the eye/I could see. It didn't feel like a "my" shift, but more like a "we" shift within ONE! Inner choices were being made from a state of clarity I have never experienced before. I found myself following inner instructions no matter how absurd they appeared to be...each one leading to a new serendipitous moment, connection, revelation, or experience of incredible joy, All I could see was Love everywhere, and so much adoration being expressed as a constant. The Oneness Meditation experiences were truly phenomenal. And Dougji was the epitome of Bliss, Love, Compassion, and most assuredly Oneness. What a gift. What a treat. What was released through each of the Meditations was so unsolicited, so powerful, so liberating. I've never felt that much ??? at any gathering before this one. It felt a thousand times more powerful than Hands-On. It felt like the Eye Deeksha entered the moment we all held hands during the Ananda Mandala (sp) and quantumed when Dougji appeared. WOW, frontwards and WOW backwards is my comment. I was shown the resolution of a life-long mystery about my relationship with my daughter. That was awesome and continues to deepen my gratitude for Grace, Bhagavan, Jesus, and the Mystery! My first Kundalini experience was back in 1987, and has been very active in clearing the content of Awareness ever since. But, what is so amazing is that for the very first time I experienced clear passage of Kundalini energy as it gently flowed with no resistance through all chakra points. I was held in a vortex of stillness that lasted for hours. Oh, my God the freedom of being actively STILL for such a long period of time was so profound. I honestly feel I have somehow shed a garment of karmic release, and all that remains is ...what remains??? Can't identify it, and have no desire to do so. It is obvious that Something is new, Something is beyond words, and that it took this collective gathering of Oneness to effect/affect such awesome transformation. I am so indebted, so humbled by the experience, so very grateful Thank each and every one of you. Love, Diadra Love, Diadra |
| Immediately upon entering the hotel, I felt surrounded by the loving presence of our Oneness family, and this continued throughout the weekend. The Grace was palpable from the start, and only grew as the weekend proceeded. The Oneness Meditation experience was very deep and profound. I went to three sessions, and each time, at the tail end of Ananda Mandala with my eyes closed, I saw a great Light Being in front of me when Doug came in the room. Ananda Mandala gave me powerful sensations of experiencing my energy body and chakras in a whole new way than ever before. The eye deeksha filled me with such joy and bliss to see AmmaBhagavan's love pouring from Doug's eyes. I felt like I was lost in a huge swirling energy of love flowing from me to Amma Bhagavan, and from them to me, laughing and laughing all the while. And then, the integration period took me into a profound state deep stillness. Now, three days later, life is very ordinary, but at the same time, I continue to experience a core of stillness and ever-present joy. My mind will not engage for any length of time in worries or stories, and I know that absolutely everything in my life is the Divine revealing itself to me. I feel peaceful and at the same time invigorated, ready to continue with joy and passion on the path that is presented to me. |
| Amazing . Made me realize how important it is to bond strongly with the divine. I also now realize more than ever how important it is to move through the charges and allow my self to fully feel in order to heal. When we were bonding with the divine ammabaghavan turned into the Cat in The hat and Mary poppins. They were my most favorite magical characters as a child. I also see more and more the importance of healing the inner child. The Eye deksha was amazing. I was both crying and laughing during the process. It knocked me out. Now that I am back home I have been feeling the charges. Time to move through them all with the help of amma bhagavan. I'm so grateful for having been a part of this amazing weekend. Thank you everyone who organized it. Most of all thank you Amma Bhagavan |
| Just overwhelming palpable bliss in re: the sacredness of all things and all beings |
| The eye deeksha energy was OFF THE CHARTS!!! So powerful.....loved it and I am very grateful for the opportunity to be part of oneness and this event in Washington DC. Love amma/bhagavan, Doug, all Oneness trainers and blessing givers and all people on the planet. Because of eye deeksha and the weekend there is a quiet space in my mind, more peace, love and less charges. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE |
| BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! Room filled with Love and Joy!!!!! Loved Loved the darshan with Sri Bhagavan. What a special treat!!!!! Felt like I was back in India at the deepening course. Doug was beautiful!!! He had so much Love, Grace and Gratitude flowing from him into the room for all of us to receive from the beautiful blessing that was offered to us. His Gratitude to Bhagavan was one of the most beautiful things I have ever ever had the opportunity to witness in my 63 years. I was able to feel all his grace, love and gratitude. Veryvery powerful for I am still processing from his blessings. What a beautiful meditation for the world to be able to receive outside of India. THANK YOU AMMA BHAGAVAN for sending Doug to the USA to help to try to awaken all the American people. We are in such desperate need of extreme help for our county is in self destruction mode. I feel that the USA is in the worst times it has ever been in the history of the USA. We need Doug's blessing to be as strong as his body can handle!!! Sending so much love and gratitude to Amma Bhagavan and Doug for this beautiful blessing. |
| I am so grateful to have been at the event! I could feel my heart open even more and the tears of joy and gratitude just flowed.I feel my connection with God has deepened and I loved the Oneness meditation. So powerfull and beautiful. Thank you Doug for suggesting the 21 day experiment to write down the date and times we make prayer requests and to note when they are answered. I have begun and I am delighting in the manifestations. The Bhakthi was beautiful to witness and experience. So many blessings that cannot be put into words. Thank you, thank you, thank you all and especially Amma Bhagavan! |
| Loved the times with Doug. The Oneness Meditation was fabulous. Felt the whole event should have been open to both trainers and blessing givers. Did not feel that any information was shared that could not have been shared with the blessing givers as well. Felt that having the blessing givers there for the sharing on how to put on an event would have been very helpful in engaging them to assist. |
| Amazing experience and such total joy was felt and still in the same state today..........2 days later. I feel as if my connection to the divine has just soared off the charts! The total environment was wonderful and can't say enough to those involved in making this a huge success. |
| My wife and I drove to the DC event from Houston and had a very rewarding trip. Our 2 day travel to the event had many moments of deep revelations for me personnally. GOD's protection especially in the rain was obvious and powerful! Amma Bhagavan we are forever gratful for your services for the Devine. Especially the gift of Doug for our awakening! The EYE Deeksha IS AUWSOME! Our return drive gave me time to reflect on the whole event and reflect on my greatest way to assist more in the process of World Awakening. |
| I felt a deepening of peace and a broadening of my awareness. It is still unfolding, i feel i am having deep changes, but I have no words to articulate what I am feel. |
| During the bakthi, I started experiencing the whole bliss-pain spectrum all at once. This was amazing but also quite disconcerting to the mind. I realized too that these yearly meetings are very very helpful esp. for those of us who have not been able to get back to India. It is like a re-connection takes place. Passion to help out in the world became much stronger and faith grew. The Oneness Meditation: I definitely felt a lot of activity around 3rd eye (as well as regular eyes)-- and frontal lobes, mostly during integration. Lots of stillness. There was a great sense of spaciousness, deep stillness (even with some mental and emotional activity, there was/is an all pervading stillness- again there was the feeling of that whole spectrum at once) and tremendous love. Significant deepening is continuing since the meditation; as time goes by, the stillness/spaciousness is still growing. The effects seem more noticeable today even than during the meditation itself. I walk around and love and peace and stillness and spaciousness all at once are looking through these eyes. It is not a new experience, but it is a deeper or grander experience than before. Doug was a beautiful spectacle to watch and experience and each meditation seemed to take a predictable sequence. The room was filled with spiritual light of a density that was quite solid. I felt some of the laughter in the room was authentic and some was coming from the mind in some discomfort maybe or wanting what the others were experiencing? Some concern arose that the hen house effect might have been a bit much for visitors? I remember early on in TM when they came out with yogic flying, people made a lot of noise like that, and after a bit Maharishi suggested that the noise was not necessary (it can become a habit associated with a certain meditation) and it stopped overnight. I have a hunch that a lot of the laughter and noise is not necessary any more. It did not bother me, and I am sure within most oneness communities it would be a non-issue, however if it continues like that during the tour, I feel we need to prepare the public for that so that they are less likely to go into a reaction of fear/resistance. |
| It was fabulous. Everything went smoothly. The Energies were "sky high" and beyond. I continue to feel a calm, and grace. |
| What a powerful experience! I am still experiencing Peace and more awareness three days after. i could feel my Kundalini opening and filling me with grace and energy. I am able to release my charges after a very short time. |
| I went into the breathless state (in yoga called "kumbhaka") for extended periods during the Oneness Meditation, particularly when Doug's eyes seemed to meet mine. During these times I was enfolded in awesome stillness, my spiritual vision opened in vivid technicolor, and I saw Dougji shining with brilliant white light and an absolutely HUGE aura as MANY great masters and saints came through him, one after another. As each one came through him, Doug's entire physical appearance clearly changed into theirs, and I experienced them communicating with me non-verbally while floods of Divine Love and Grace washed over the entire room and everyone in it. Needless to say, the Oneness Meditation was a remarkable experience, one which I highly recommend to everyone. Each person's experience might be very different than mine, but I am certain that simply being in the presence of such an outpouring of Divine Grace would be a life-changing event for anyone! |
| The love in the room was so palpable from the very beginning. Nothing more powerful than a room full of trainers and OBGs! I was so happy to have my 13 year old son with me so he could experience a community like this. As a trainer I got so much joy watching my home group of OBGs experience this event and how blown away they were when Bhagavan came on. You can not really explain the experience of seeing Bhagavan live to them, but you know it when you see them get it and their hearts blow wide open. The Eye Deeksha was like getting a hug from a Oneness Being x10. I can't believe we're even allowed to do this in this country. LoL! My first experience the women beside me kept spontaneously screaming and flopped around in Ananda Mandala like crazy. I thought she would astral project out of her body. That was just amusing to me and did laugh uncontrollably for awhile. When Doug was giving the Eye Deeksha I just felt love & bliss. I love Dougji like a brother and it was strange to have the experience coming through him, I wanted to cheer him on and support him. Then after we closed our eyes and the Liberation Sutra came on my body started to flow into movement, my arms kept floating up and I was being moved from the inside out. The feeling was amazing. I was moved into a deep back bend with my head over the back of the chair (I hope the poor person behind me had their eyes closed;) The second time I was in the center of the room and in a row that just so happened to have my room mates from the Deepening. Ananda Mandala was just nice the second time. The Eye Deeksha how ever blew me away. Waves of energy coursed through me, I almost came of my chair a couple of times (there is an intelligence in the energy that kept me in my own space while I totally exploded at the same time) The Liberation Sutra again moved me into experiences of joy, and a sense of floating in a sea of consciousness. I was pretty baked after that. I should have gone straight to bed and let the experience continue. But I didn't want to miss anything so I sat in the back fo the last session, opted out of A.M and still got plowed when Doug came on. Not as intense as the 2nd time but still so amazing the power emanating through and from Doug. This is a miracle my mind can not comprehend. I can feel this energy working me still. Things will never be the same. I am altered from the inside out. Oh and my 2 months of lower back pain is gone. Thank you Amma Bhagavan!! |
| Amazing!! For me the atmosphere of the gathering was permeated with Holy Grace. The joyousness, the lovingness, the lightness of the people was phemonenal. My break-through was in the sheading of density of my Being. Today is Feb.1st and I am still flaoting and flowing. Thank God!!!! By Holy Grace, Hanifah |
| Words can hardly describe how I feel. The love from this gathering was beyond description. I have an increased awareness of the Golden Age beginning right now. I laughed and cried at the same time, a beautiful experience. |
| Silent meditation is really an astounding experience beyond my expectations of a state and divine helping hand. It is still continuing, though disturbed slightly in my work environment. But I am able to regain the state by just meditating for few seconds to couple of minutes. Physical effect: Due to my dental issue, I was using anti-biotics to manage the infection and bleeding, as I have to manage it till I get it fixed early Feb. However, I do see that during the weekend meditation session and till now, I do not need any anti-biotics and infection is reduced to 1%. I did not take a single anti-biotic since Sunday till now. Psychological effect: Now, I am very confident with new divine energies flowing through my whole body, increased level of awareness and basking in divine energies. Spiritual effect: I am getting new insights which are helping me a lot. Now, I am able to recognize any issues popping up as soon as it arise and able to start responding to them successfully. Also my perception changed to see the problems/issues as measurements about my present condition and able to Thank these situations. Another best attitude which I got now is "I am just a clerk of AmmaBhagavan, I just do up to my level best and AmmaBhagavan are the whole owners of the whole business happening through me. This attitude gave me tremendous relief, confidence and joy. But still when I do silent meditation of divine energies, I see an astounding peace and bliss flowing through m whole body. I love this gathering as I see everyone deeply involved in Love with my dearest AmmaBhagavan. Q&A session topics greatly clarified me. |
| During the japa, someone brought round the padukas. I touched them, and then felt the thumbs of the person holding the padukas clamp over my hands. I felt some kind of rush, then I could not stop dancing. Mind you, I had a migraine, nausea and a shoulder tear. During darshan and the sri murthi process, Bhagawan introduces himself to me through prana and asana. At night, he allows me to understand, in an almost archetypal way, the "significance" of certain body movements or positions. Well, there was absolutely no "significance" when I danced, as I was not dancing. The dance was to set the room on fire, Bhagawan said. Bhagawan kept making me dance. Afterwards, I could not stop coughing and felt ill. I am a yoga teacher and have been a recipient of network care through Donny Epstein at the highest levels since 1999. I have also taught somato respiratory integration and praticed vajrayana buddhist rituals for many years. I can handle energy in my body, and lots of it. But....this was a little different... ..and good preparation for the jewel of jewels, the eye diksha. We were given eye diskha in India during my recent trip there. I received the same "prana and asana" in my body. Same with bhagawan's darshan. This time, when Doug conducted eye diksha, what was left of me was simply and utterly one with what "Doug" was "doing". I could understand why bhagawan insisted on keeping me living a humble life, doing energetic practices, ripening my karma, and allowing me to experience so much suffering. It was preparation for that moment. I am a natural empath. I never tell people because it freaks them out. This inclination causes great pain, as I will pick up whatever is going on in a room or a group, and closet myself otherwise. But I can think of no better inclination when it comes to eye diksha. There were no barriers. When the buddhist lamas gave their version of eye diksha to me, it allowed me to see myself, much in the way I saw myself recently in India. They were gentle with the energy, looking back. They became "me". I am so glad bhagawan turned up the volume, and allowed "me" to become "him". I wonder if the experience was that ridiculoulsy joyous and jubilant for everyone. |
| Being with our community and sharing meditation and blessing with so many like minded people was simply incredible. I felt the Presence strongly both in our group gatherings and with individual attendees. I experienced some of the most powerful blessings ever. The breakthrough I am most grateful for is an even deeper connection with Sri Amma Bhagavan and this has carried through my daily life since. I also got confirmation from Doug that one of my Sri Murthis is very alive and producing vibhuthi. It is giving me such joy to honor Amma Bhagavan by giving it aarti 3 times a day. |
| I was working as a volunteer, and so had "promised" to stay fully functional, and agreed I would not participate in the processes while "on duty". However, I did not account for the fact that the processes would go ahead and participate with me! :) Even standing in the back of the room, to the side, and only being in the room for portions of the first two sessions, I was TOTALLY feeling the bliss, the wide open blasting of heart energies. I was "doorkeeper" when Dougji first entered the hall while in the ecstatic state - the wave of bliss as he passed, and glanced into my eyes, buckled my knees. I melted in sheer joy, with laughter and tears. When I did get the opportunity to sit through a full session, it was profoundly stilling, joyful, expansive all in such depth and breadth as I have never experienced, even having used those words before. I am continually feeling the shifts in the energy, the shifting of the universe as we bring this process to fruition. I am so deeply grateful to AmmaBhagavan, all the Oneness Beings, all the guides, all who have seeded and nurtured this vision for so long. I am humbled to think that I have some part in something so momentous. |
| Reconnected with My Divine, Bhagavan and the Oneness Movement in general and my community. Our trainer community came together in a beautiful way. I am personally fired up to share oneness in my home town, where we do not have a big community and I'm excited about that. Other the the OM, the webcast was very special and just what I needed. Thank you. Its a clear step "up" in my process with more joy, ease and purpose, freedom and connection. |
| This weekend was so fun and inspirational. The new eye Deeksha is amazing! I don't live near any other blessing givers and so it was wonderful to get to do Bhakti and Japa with others. I worked through a lot of resistance and came through the other side with great joy. I also had a lot of insights, especially how I have Grace has been dragging me along instead of Grace being the force behind and through me. I feel so much more connected and inspired to move forth in my purpose of awakening. |
| Very powerful experience. I'm still processing all that I saw and felt. I believe this event set in motion an evolution in this country that will be far reaching around the globe. It far too late to turn back. We can't stop now! |
| I recently got back from India, so having this opportunity to get together with all my fellow trainers and share in that incredible energy was amazing. One fascinating phenomenon I experienced was that due to several reasons, I got very little sleep while I was there. Normally that would have ruined my weekend, put in a fog, and made me really grumpy. None of those symptoms were evident; it didn't matter at all that I was running on fumes - AmmaBhagavan kept me running and feeling like I'd had 8 hours each night. Of course the highlight of the weekend was the OM. I had high expectations going in and I wasn't disappointed. The most profound effect was the virtually complete cessation of all thought; truly extraordinary in my life. This was followed by a stillness, calmness, peace, and joy, the likes of which I've never experienced. I had to leave immediately for the airport, and that was a real challenge as my brain was simply not functioning very well. It's now 3 days later and I'm still in this beautiful place of peace and joy, and I'm completely saturated with gratitude. |
| I was helping as a volunteer at the event in the DC area and was in the back of the room during the initial Oneness Meditation Session (there were 4). It was the most incredible experience. I have been at several large Oneness events and participated in many different types of meditations but have never seen the impact on a room that the Oneness Meditation had. Without even participating in the process, I could feel the divine energy sweeping through me. I did participate in the process in a later session and enjoyed it immensely. Comparing a hands-on deeksha to the Oneness Meditation is like comparing standing in the shower at your home to standing under a water fall. |
| Very deep kundalini energy coursing through the body, through the head and eyes, deep bhakti feelings intense pressure in head, good creative ideas flowed, presence of amma and bhagavan very strong, deep kundalini energy felt in all chakras---many angles hard to put into words |
| It was a joy and privilege to engage with Doug during the eye deeksha. Who would have guessed that irrepressible joy would be the vehicle for our awakening? Such a delightful, unexpected surprise. |
| The entire event, every single detail was so beautiful and filled with such love. I am offering gratitude to all who made it possible every day. It could not have been more lovely and filled with Divine Grace. I experienced complete Bliss when receiving the eye deeksha. Laughter from the dpeths of my soul that lasted the entire time and even after the deeksha was over. Now, when I sit before my Sri Murthi, I go into a similar state. It was Amma Bhagavan just there- always there. It's so funny. The is ONLY the Divine, there only ever was the Divine, there only will be the Divine. All the worry, the attempts to control, the doubt, all seems so very funny. It was the sweetest gift of Grace and I am telling everyone to please bring their friends, loved ones, and ANYONE on any path of Awakening to see Dougji. We are planning a beautiful event for Doug here in Atlanta April 2-4. Please come if you can. Thank-you for the depths of my heart- I was deeply moved by each one of you: Elizabeth, Matt, Michael, the precious yoga lady, all the sound crew, the volunteers. Much gratitude and blessings to you. Jai Amma Bhagavan! |
| I am Deeeeply Grateful and Blessed to have been able to partake in this inaugural Event with our Oneness Community!!! Words could not amply express the feeling in my heart Saturday evening when we sent out Blessings to each state here in the US, Canada and Mexico!!! Talk about a feeling of Oneness!!! Doug's eye deeksha was absolutely Phenominal!!!!! I slept for about an hour and a half on the way home right after the eye deeksha with Doug, as we had a 5 hour drive back to NJ, and I woke up so energized and just HAPPY!!!! :) THANK YOU, DOUG!!! :) I look forward to going again and bringing as many people as possible when Doug is in the NJ area in April!!! Relationship issues just seem to be dissolving more quickly in my life without me even doing anything...I am Soooo Happy and Sooooo Grateful!!! Thank You, Bhagavan for allowing Doug to bring this to us here in the US!!! And finally, the fact that they had to combine all 3 Sessions for the 500 Blessing Givers to make room for the public's session of 250 or More was Simply Outstanding!!!!!!! I left with a feeling of Peace and knowing that the world is right behind us in wanting to be awakened and live this shift in consciousness!!! It is quite clear Amma Bhagavan's Vision will be completed!!! I am honoured, humbled and Grateful to be a part of this Family and assist Amma Bhagavan with their vision!!!!!!! :) Thank You and Many Blessings, AmmaBhagavan!!!!! Namaste, Valerie |
| I really did not have any plans to come to the 2012 Community Gathering until just a few days before the event. And then I felt as if I were a trout hooked onto a very strong and incredibly gentle line that just pulled into the whole experience. All was effortless: I got the same plane reservation as my freinds, and one had a room to share. Greeting old friends was a delight, and seeing the the beautful coperative efforts of the coordinators was breath-taking. I witnessed true community in action and I felt restored by all the love sweeping over and around us. Somehow I saw the expectations I usually drag with me melting away, in areas I didn't even know about. It was a mysterious letting go into the mystery of heart love. The Oneness Meditation was/is still beyond words. I know that the gratitude I felt and the amazement of seeing Dougji as a oneness being brought me to my knees in devotion and compassion. |
| It was a tremendous gathering in so many ways, one where it felt truely like connecting with family.The entire event was intense, very special and touching. Although many things were experienced, I wish to focus specifically on the experience of receiving the eye deeksha. From the moment of connection I laughed and simultaneously cried the entire time.Since I have been embraced within the folds of Oneness (2006)I have never expeienced Divine unconditional love, acceptance and non-judgement as I did then. I was immersed and held in that consciousness throughout and now have an experience that is etched on my heart and in my consciousness. It is inspiring and has boosted my faith in and love for my Divine. The intensity of the Love blows me away and I now have a dawning realization of the power of love to trasmute and transform all suffering.I am so grateful to my Divine for this expereince and so much more.. |
| Coming together was a blast and I felt full and grateful to be with the Family. All the beautiful souls that are so close to my heart and we don't get to see each other so much. I love having such a big functional family! It was a weekend full of inner silence and introspection. It's been a couple of months like that, so I kept somewhat to myself. To be honest it is somewhat blurred and like a dream memory by now (only 2 days have passed). The energy was high and we were showered with Grace over and over again. The actual 15 minutes of the Oneness Meditation were powerful. My mind was racing a hundred miles an hour in a contradictory struggle of expectation, knowledge and surrender and resistance, I was laughing in joy and Grace and then my body felt strong currents of energy and surges of electricity come through, it shook strongly and collapsed. I was fully conscious and witnessing, yet for a moment I could not move -and my mind kept saying it was just an act, not real, not happening.... I was vibrating high and could feel the energy rush in my hands and head. Then, slowly I sat back up and it was over, still shaking a little and not sure I could walk straight or keep my eyes open. I had to leave for the airport right away so had no time to integrate. I was in awe and silence and gratitude, somewhat dazed and confused, and my mind still racing, still is, every thought clear and way too loud. My neck, upper back and the back of my head have been in tension and pain only helped with some yoga and pranayam to move the energy a little. I wish this inner voice and racing mind had a switch, I'm finding it difficult to take it! I am so tired and dazed and cannot switch it off... it just feels like tiresome nonsense panicked noise, an uncomfortable neighbour that won't shut up. And the rest just happens, my hands type, my eyes see and I observe. I have not been able to sleep much in the past two days. I am tired and just want to close my eyes and commune with my inner world/Divine, but at the same time, physically I am so wired! I sleep one or two hours and then have to get up, do yoga, clean; anything to be active and spend the energy. It feels very compulsive. The helplessness at the speed and the noise are so clear and I want to surrender to it, but I am still holding on to ... something, not sure what. Don't know well how to describe it, it is also as if I can "feel" a "scream" in my chest that says "PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!", and I can't.... and yet at the same time I am just observing all of this calmly in joy and amusement... but please, please... make it stop! |
| I signed up and came without really knowing why....then major financial events affecting our islands happened...there was so much fear in the air...then I understood why I had to attend. It was so good to renew the feeling of India...of Oneness...of Sri Amma Bhagavan....I did not realize how much I missed them until Sri Bhagavan was on the screen..the Love I felt in my heart was so great...it just washed everything else away...the tears just kept coming. Since I was a young child...I would hear this sound that would wake me from sleep....whenever I heard it I would be afraid....because there was always a feeling that came with that sound...something that happened deep inside of me....my Spirit! I kept hearing that sound into adulthood until the first day I entered the Oneness Temple in India...the sound was the beginning of all the meditation songs...(still don't know what the instrument is)...maybe a situar??? Then I understood....Sri Bhagavan had been calling me all my life...and there was nothing to fear. My life has never been the same...it was no longer about me...it was about humanity...and things that I can do to help in the process. I felt that attending the Oneness Meditation was the re-charging I needed to be a beacon for the people of the Virgin Islands...to help them overcome fear and turn it into something creative....all with the understanding of Oneness. I LOVE YOU SRI AMMA BHAGAVAN!!! |
| Amazing. the whole world is family. a closeness to everything emerging. each moment so full. less and less carry over. just what is is. |
| The weekend was just fabulous and far exceeded any expectations I had. I loved being with the trainers and also the blessing givers when they arrived as they were all so passionate. The whole weekend and since I got back home has all flowed for me so beautifully and I see how the divine is working in my life every minute. I seem to be thanking my divine constantly for the miracles that just keep coming and they are such small things. I arrive at the right time, I meet the people I need to meet. I am no longer in suffering as there is nothing to suffer over personally. The divine is in charge. I could not remember the name of the company where I parked my car and the first place I called when I arrived at the airport was the correct one and also I did not take my paperwork with me and did not know where I parked my car in the huge lot in the wee small hours of the morning. There was one other lady on the shuttle going back to the car park in the middle of the night and the bus stopped at her stall number and you can imagine my joy when my car was parked right beside hers. Only the divine could synchonise that one!!! I have had very little sleep these past few nights and am not tired. In fact I am so energised I have electircal charges coming out of my fingers and soles of my feet. My experience with the Oneness Meditation is one of wonder. Never have I seen Doug so full of joy that to me it appeared he was unable to contain it. I experienced it 3 times and each time it was different hitting me in the heart the first time, the head the second time and my whole body tingled during the third. I want to become a Doug groupie now and take in this blessing/meditation as much as I can....My thanks so much to Sri Bhagavan, Sri Amma, Doug and all the guides at the Oneness University. I am so blessed. |
| I thoroughly enjoyed the experience. The energy of over 500 people was great and provided the impetus to meditate longer than I have in recent years. The sharing was with so many was excellent. My primary learning involved being open to whatever structure is presented and not anticipating a particular response on my part. |
| The Gathering of Family was such a joyful experience. This truly was FAMILY...the connections were deeply heartfelt with brothers and sisters from all over North America. Thank you so much for this wonderful opportunity! I had the privilege...there is no other word for it...to participate in 4 weeks of the Deepening in October/November 2011. There was not a single day that did not have deep meaning and profound experiences. I thought there was nothing that could touch me the way being in the Deepening did. My experience with Doug during the Oneness Meditation was profound; I attended sessions 2,3,and 4. The profound experience and power of Kalki flowing through His vessel, Doug, caused tears to stream during each session. My love for the Puruhothama was overwhelming...the experience of His Grace continues. There are no more words to express my gratitude. Finally, the gift of knowing Doug...seeing him grow over these years...experiencing his passion and seva...makes it possible to imagine that Trainers can be vessels for Sri Sri Bhagavan....i am crying again |
| I was allowed to attend the 1st meditation and had the second to last seat available before the doors were shut. From way in the back off by the far door, unable to see Doug well or the screen closely, I had the strongest surge of deeksha ever, even greater than the 3rd and the 4 deekshas. The 3rd I was on the second row almost able to have direct line of vision yet, the first oneness meditation was the most powerful by far. I felt the wave as it approached me, flow through me and past me. The kundalini kept my entire body vibrating in a very profound motion, and when it was over, the quietness settled over me before we began to silently meditate to the liberation chant began. It happened deeply and upon the first night home, Monday night, before I could sleep, I felt pulled and saw it as a lucid dream right up and knew I was leaving my body as it happened. There was a ring of quite fast vibration like a hat band all the way around my head, buzzing like an electric motor, just a ring from my forehead all the way around. then suddenly I opened my eyes and realized I had just gotten into bed, had not fallen asleep, but just went elsewhere for awhile. Once I put my head down and closed my eyes in wonder over such a sudden change, I could hear the roar of an engine in my head, could hear it clearly and the vibration from it was evident as I could feel it against the sheets on my bed. Seems every time, the most amazing events that have propelled me forward into deeper awarenesses, it's been in Doug's presence. It's really very funny, 2 years ago at trainer's meeting with Doug in Seattle, my Kundalini awakened and blew out any imbalances, as my body undulated gently from bottom of my spine to top of my head, so strong and I had never in this life experienced Kundalini before. I felt like a steel pole up my back and I missed hands on deeksha with Doug because I didn't want to come out of this experience even though peter gilles or Doug tapped me on my back so I might not miss the Deeksha opportunity. Then Last Feb at Boulder CO intensive, sitting in back of room before I had to catch my flight to west coast, listening to Doug give talk, I had lucid experience out of no where while he spoke of watching my Antaryamin walk out in front of me, as I studied my God so closely and was so amazed at what I saw, then it turned slowly and walked back into me, merging. I came back to Doug still talking. Now this experience, again in Doug's presence...I was not the one in control here, each meditation there was powerful electricity flowing all through my body, the vibration made my body shake ever so lightly but at mock speed probably barely noticeable to anyone else except when I held my hands up, they shook, my neck and head shook. So I am more than willing to sit in the room and meditate with Doug anytime. He is certainly in this life, my catalyst for awakening, a great instrument of AmmaBhagavan for sure. They just zap me though his presence every time. I was so full of of light and love, tears not of my accord just trickled from my eyes, my heart chakra burned from front to back like on fire. The presence was so strong in my body I could feel the love of God Source present in me in a new way and feel so blessed to have been part of Doug's first meditation. The Oneness meditation sparked a whole new level of Awakening in me, as told by my body that has not every before melted into total non-resistance. I have enjoyed the Oneness Blessing since 2006 yet this Oneness Meditation just rocked my body electric like no other meditation ever. The after effects like timed release manifested the moment I was home and in bed, at the very moment I turned out my light and pulled up the blanket my head began to buzz, my reality shifted, and I knew it was all part of the plan in Divine Order, sinking down into the experience in such bliss as i observed all that was happening inside of me. Thank you AmmaBhagavan for choosing me, and to Doug for being the clear channel of such love and light. I felt like I was on a ride at Disney Land and didn' t want to get off, just kept circling back into line to get ready to do it again, addicted to the sensations of such powerful energy hitting the room. Wow, I could see when Bhagavan came though, Doug's eyes changed, I could see right down deep into the black of the eyes and sometimes for a moment they locked in and it was just my eyes looking straight into Bhagavan's eyes, the depth was endless. The shift was real apparent when it happened and Bhagavan took over. Doug's whole body changed, but to look in the eyes said it best, there is nothing else ever like that even with the hands on blessing I received in India from Bhagavan on the last day of my deepening last Novemeber 2010. This was by far the most powerful. |
| What impacted me the most was the Eye Deeksha from Doug Bentley. During my deepening experience in India in 09 I was embraced by a Conscious Being. It was a profound experience the Eye Deeksha with Doug felt similiar. When I looked in Doug's eyes I felt I was seeing eternity in the face of The Divine. The weekend confirmed for me my soul purpose which I have sensed since I was a very young. I have heartfelt gratitude to The Divine for my Oneness Meditation weekend experience. |
| Going to the Trainer's Conference is like going home. I could feel so much love and passion among everyone there. It is always special to be in the presence of others who share my passion for helping humanity end pain and suffering. Going into the silent meditation I didn't have any expections. I had set the intention that I was an empty vessel; and prayed that AmmaBhagavan would fill me with their grace. While we were doing Ananda Mandala I felt a shift when Doug arrived on the stage (I opened my eyes and peeked!) When Doug began giving the Deeksha I experienced uncontrollable laughter and tears simultaneously. The only other time I had that experience was in India (in the physical presence of of Amma and Bhagavan). It was as if there was no Doug. It was AmmaBhagavan, then I saw Jesus, then angels, I saw Vikram Ji, and some of the other monks and cosmic beings. I saw someone with long hair that I didn't know. It was like all of the masters were there. My jaw dropped, and I was in complete awe of what I was seeing. Even in India, I never felt the grace like I did when Doug gave that Deeksha. Monday was a bit strange. I could read words, but they didn't mean anything. I could drive the car, but I wasn't driving. Everything was in slow motion, and I was watching things happen. While I was in DC, I prayed that Bhagavan would flower in my husband's heart. My husband is a blessing giver, but not very involved. I felt like we were growing apart because Oneness is the most important thing in my life, and he was avoiding it. When I arrived home in Tampa, I informed my husband that I was going to a Blessing that evening, and invited him. To my surprise, he came with me. As soon as he began to give me a blessing, I started to cry because I realized Bhagavan performed a miracle for me. In the car, on the way home, my husband told me that he liked the group we went to and that he was willing to go there more often. Thank you AmmaBhagavan for answering my prayers so quickly. Tuesday I woke up with a headache as though I had brain surgery! I asked Bhagavan to help me integrate the energy quickly yet gently. My headache was gone by the time I got out of the shower. I am a hair stylist, and my first client was new. She was referred to me. I was telling her about Oneness and offered to give her a blessing. She accepted, and had a very beautiful experience. She was grateful to have met me, and will be coming to see me on a weekly basis. Thank you Bhagavan, for increasing my income while allowing me to share your grace. Overall, the energy has not declined since this weekend. Electrical vibrations across my forehead and on the top of my head are constant. When I am giving blessings, the grace is flowing through me stronger and faster. I feel so connected to AmmaBhagavan; and I am more emotionally sensitive than usual. When something touches my heart, tears instantly well up in my eyes. Things that would normally trigger me don't seem to matter. I am really enjoying this process. Another miracle happened when I was telling my mother about my experiences in DC. My mother (who is a Baptist) told me that she wants to come receive this blessing when Doug comes to Tampa. I was shocked since her church is very closed off to anything other than Jesus Christ. Thank you AmmaBhagavan for extending your grace to my mother. |
| The unconditional expansion of Divine Love I felt during the eye deeksha, and the Love that I felt towards, Doug, the Divine, was so profound. My heart was so expanded, and i couldn't actually tell if I was experiencing tears of deep emotion from joy or sadness..I felt such compassion coming from Doug, as I expereince deep compassion towards him.....it all felt the same. After the meditation was over, I was in such an expanded state, I needed to lie down. And the "sound of silence" permeated every cell in my body and continues to even now. The stillness has stayed with me. I also was quite aware when i was having a heart experience as opposed to when the mind jumped in to have "its" own experience as well. :-) The mind questioning the excess laughter, whether because I was not in a state of laughter if that meant i was not having the full experience, feeling like the laughter was a distraction, wondering how the mainstream public would receive Doug's altered ecstatic state...etc Being aware of the difference between the mind expereince and the pure authentic heart experience, was in itself a very beneficial insight for me, and not being attached to the mind's thoughts was a true blessing. I also witnessed Doug literally transform into another being, but as soon as the mind registered what was happening and thoughts entered, he stopped. It was truly an experience that I am still processing and feeling the effects of. I also left feeling so grateful to be part of this Oneness family and equate this joureny to that of a mother in labor. Right before she enters the transition phase of giving birth, it may be common for her to realize, OMG there is no turning back now. She has no choice but to go with it. That's how I feel about Oneness. I have no choice but to go with it, I feel its calling that strongly. To serve in whatever way Sri AmmaBhagavan ask, however small, or however big....to whatever degree. I am their humble servant. |
| At the Oneness Meditation, I felt tremendous bliss and love pouring to all of us. I couldn't contain my tears as I knew that deep healing was taking place. I felt and continue feeling this effervescence in my body and this energy clearing my eyes and third eye chakra. I continue to feel so much joy and love. I really hope that many people can benefit from this amazing benediction!! |
| The DC event was so well designed that the flow between community connection and gathering was integrated with our personal experience of deepening in the presence. Loved the small circle sharing and felt supportive and supported by the prayers. Dougji's exercise was magnificent. I wrote for over an hour, very deep work. Major Kundalini energies were back in high gear like they were at the deepening in India. I felt so alive inside the body, and also so very still in my head. During the eye deekshas the actual sensation in my head was very strong and specific as a band that slowly came down from the circle of the crown to stop around my eyes and ears. Even today, two days later that same sensation is very strong and the band remains. I kept telling Roy that Bhagavan is continuing to rearrange my brain. There is so much stillness, even more that before. And one huge thing is that my PASSION for oneness is really on fire. I have been setting up events all day and really ablaze to get this out into the world. The puja intentions are deeply embedded in my heart. i feel them in my meditation morning and night. the quiet is so very beautiful. I feel such gratitude and peace, even as I am very productive. |
| It was so wonderful to have the trainer community gather and then to add blessing givers and the public like ripples in a still pool. It felt like a special blessing to have Bhagavan join us for a brief darshan with his so beautiful embracing smile and reminder of how much he loves us! The eye deeksha was very impactful. I can't speak to the energetic effect, but just witnessing the divine energies moving through Doug brought so much joy--joy for Doug to experience what he's felt so drawn to and to witness and experience Bhagavan's moving the energy in such a powerful way OUTSIDE OF INDIA was very encouraging of what's to come. Talking to people briefly afterwards and hearing the responses people had was very inspiring for us all to play our part in fulfilling the vision! |
| My experience was phenomenal. I had so many awarenesses leaden up the Eye Deeksha and then during the Eye Deeksha more experiences. The one I found most profound was the Eye Deeksha. I had intentionally decided NOT to go full out on the Ananda Mandala. I was interested in what the energy might feel like to someone who wasn't familiar with that exercise. My breathing during the Ananda Mandala was pretty normal, but I must say that that did not diminish the Eye Deeksha experience at all. The energy was palpable. I could feel it all through my body. Beautiful. Awarenesses happened. Connections were seen. It was most gently powerful and I exerted virtually no effort in the Ananda Mandala. Thank you Divine! This is going to be a most illuminating year! Deep Gratitude! |
| The gathering was great. Always sweet to see so many friends. Of course we came for the growth and since the Oneness Meditation with Doug I feel quite transformed. Nothing flashy. Just more clarity and silence all the time, everything has slowed down. Only suggestion. Doug should have been elevated higher on the stage. From further back it was difficult to see his eyes at times. |
